Working With My Energy

When Things get tough where should we turn to? To family or friends? Or should we get in line at the the local help center and just wait our turn. Don’t look to me I am a bad example. I don't go to the counseling sessions anymore. I don't speak up as loud as possible about my feelings. To top it off I still have hopes and dreams, smh. I even still use SM as an outlet, with limits- dam I think I am too far back to catch up!

Six months ago I was homeless. Sleeping nights in a warming shelter in my town. 6 months before that I had attempted to form a business from my school refund check that would help to further educate me. The formation of the business successful, Da’Zyre is official in the eyes of the State of Michigan, IRS and U.S. Treasury (I got an EIN even though I don't have a workforce yet). Contrary to my newborn business mind none of that has allowed the business to take off yet, in fact, I find myself looking over Registered Agent documentation that I have to research to understand. Some days it even feels like my problems (read: confusion on how business flows and magnitude of impact) has ballooned before Ive even addressed my website and promotional needs. TBH the business isn’t really even a business because it hasn’t made any money yet, its an entity. The name registered, the tax info set up but still sitting lazily by me like a newborn puppy.

For now it can afford to sit and wait. Its role is an important aspect in my current pastime, writing. I don't do this for a living I write for the relaxation and practice of it. In a harsh ttime such as this administration any release is a hard earned one. It seems that hate and control and liberal politics are in control of our society. I know little about politics in fact, and struggle to understand the angles in which politicians work. I hear the concerns that come with allowing the wrong candidate to take office but glimpses of the America we live in now are not the same as when I was growing up.

I grew up down south in Ga in a single parent household. Politics weren’t a discussion we held and in fact I never even studied its operations with the exception of History class. We know how those history chapters used to go, one week off study and discussion then we moved on. As I’ve gotten older I've made a conscious effort to tap into what goes on in our system as a whole, not just because of curiosity but because awareness of my surroundings has always been a study. No one I dated in the past showed a major interest either, we were just living, working and trying to get somewhere.

Fast forward to today and those skills I did amass have gathered around me a pretty substantial amount of momentum. I cant by any means paint the picture that I went without being loved, thought about and considered. Still, I havent yet reached any milestones that would qualify me for the Guiness Records and I still get offended at the stupidity and trolling I see on the internet but i continue to work on who I am daily, despite what I may hear. The Creative completion hours you see on the home page of my portfolio? Those are outdated thanks to the fact that despite all this adverse energy has tried to throw at me I still fight back experience after experience.

I hope that those around me understand my drive and recognize a little of themselves in the effort to not drown. Inflation, AI, both intelligence and ignorance, don’t care that we are displaced unless we speak up for ourselves and still carry a lot of hope that there are still good people out there that believe in Humanity, closeness and attachment to nature. When I get to that success that I see and believe for myself I want to not be the only one from my surroundings. In all I’ve heard, seen, and experienced I know that we are our own saviors and our efforts supersede our words.